Falling…

Love is something a lot of us talk n think about, it is also something that a LOT of us claim to be experts on, but personally, I feel that the luckiest of us will only ever get to experience n understand parts of it, never the whole, complete package…

Love is simple but yet at the same time complicated,
Love gives but yet at the same time takes away,
Love confuses but yet at the same time understands,
Love builds but yet at the same time destroys,
Love heals but yet at the same time wounds,
Love liberates the senses but yet at the same time it numbs,
Love of all things is indeed something I can never hope to truly understand.

A lot believe in love, equally, a lot of others don’t or at least they claim to not believe… but to those who do, definitely they too believe in falling in love, but how about falling out of love?

Personally, the idea of falling out of love never occurred to me, I always thought that people can only fall in love, that it wasn’t love in the first place if things don’t work out… but then, how do u explain the kind of things people do out of what is supposedly heartache? How do u explain a person smiling at a loved one’s happiness even at the expense of his own? What kind of force moves people to do these kinds of things?

I guess that it is only fair that if u believe in falling in, u should be open to the idea of falling out, I don’t know, I’ve never fallen out of love, MAYBE because I’ve never fallen in, maybe to those of u reading, u might think differently…

My wish for today is for all of you to be able to experience this miracle called falling in love, stay in it n never have to go through falling out of it… but I guess it might already be too late for some, n to those, I wish they be granted strength to move on, to fall in once again n hopefully to not have to fall out, ever again…

*sigh* in the words of Britney, I’m not gay, not yet a metro…

Answers…

A lot of questions cross our minds, each n every passing second… n I’m sure a lot of them remain unanswered, so we move on, hopeful of finding the answers as we go on but yet instead of answers, what we get is more questions, ones even more confusing n frustrating as the last… well, hey, here comes another… Are we ever going to get an answer?

Personally, I feel that we won’t, at least not in this lifetime… or unless the Almighty one decides to put us out of our misery… that’s the realist in me speaking…

But the more intellectual n spiritual part of me *ehem* feels that maybe most of the answers we look for are already around us… God doesn’t give them out just like that because He knows for a fact that we bloody humans see everything in a plethora of ways… you n I see even the simplest of things in the most complicatedly different of ways, maybe if we’re lucky, we might agree on stuff, but the fact remains that fundamentally, we view the world in our own unique way… so it is only fair that the answers should be different, depending on how we see what we see…

I have yet another question… if we see things differently, n that the answers that come r different n unique to each individual, how can we be sure that it is indeed the answer? *sigh* I think too much I guess, especially useless stuff such as these… but why do I this? Heck, see what I mean? Yet another question which I may have to wait another decade or so for an answer… ah well…

My wish is for all of u to be able to find answers to what troubles n plague u the most, hopefully sooner rather than later… but hey, if u can’t seem to find it, I wish u the patience to keep on searching, n that along the way, u find other stuff as well, stuff that make life worthwhile, things worth smiling for, things worth fighting for, n maybe if ur lucky, things so precious, they’re worth dying for…

One thing’s for sure, I’ve found a lot of things worth dying for… thank god…

*munch pizza* yumm….

That Thing You Do…

I’ve noticed that we Malaysians do a lot of funny things… funny as in weird, n in some cases downright annoying…

We insist on getting onto the train as soon as the doors open, maybe we should think of letting the people inside get out first…

We spend thousands upon thousands of ringgit buying cars, n yet, most don’t seem to bother using the signal lights when changing lanes or making a turn, after all, I thought they were standard spec on all cars, could it be that I thought wrong?

(This is a nagging question I’ve had n it goes out to certain Government institutions as well as certain public Uni’s) Why do we have to reschedule our holidays at the last minute n cause so many unnecessary problems to so many people?

Why do girls keep saying that good men are a dying breed and it’s hard to find a
good man these days? I know plenty of great guys but they seem to be the ones unable to find a good girl… go figure…(no offense ladies, I love all of u regardless)

A lot of people say that boybands suck, they can’t sing and yet their albums are the ones that really sell, if u don’t believe me, check it out on the net, the best selling albums are all from these supposedly talentless boybands, n the best part is, a lot even know the words to the songs, *hmm*…

At the moment these are the ones that come to mind… I’ll add more later… feel free to suggest more… I need all the help I can get…

My wish: May all of you be granted the patience n strength to deal with people n things annoying… or even better, u get a chance to smack the person in the face n get away scot free… *yippee!*

Now where’s that chocolate bar?

*sigh*

Old Friends… And New…

Just got back from KL… returned from what is hopefully my final debate competition… don’t get me wrong, I love debating… but I guess when you’ve been around too long, you just feel saturated…

Anyway, it was good being able to meet up with some old friends… finally had a proper conversation with Irma after what feels like an ETERNITY… got to meet up with Fareez, Raihan, Ayuni and the old dogs of debating although we didn’t really get enough time to gang up on Pala… but still feels good to see the old familiar faces you’ve grown accustomed to…

I miss the old days… I don’t know why but lately I really miss the old times I had back in school… of course life has been good to me post-SPM but the best times were back when I was in school…

I spent an extra week after the Royals to hang out with my old brothers-in-arm, Ian n Pajil, n of course to catch up with my brother Jaffri, who seems to be doing pretty well… I’m just glad to hear that at least Ian n Pajil are having good progress with their so called love lives… but I have to admit at times like these it really SUCKS being single…

But that whole week really opened my eyes to one fact… a fact we can’t refute or deny… the fact that… as much as u cherish, n as much as u try to hold on… u’ve got to learn to let go… I’ve learnt that, as much as u want things to never change, eventually they will… maybe not by choice, but circumstances will force not just us but also the people n things around us to change…

My wish for all of u who bothered reading, n to all those fortunate enough not to come across this silly excuse for a blog of mine:
May all of us be granted the strength to face n handle all these changes, may all of us manage to cope, n may all of us be able to find a reason to smile before we go to sleep each n every night…

Back to the kitchen I guess….

Cruising…

My current favourite songs are two songs by James Blunt, Goodbye My Lover n You’re Beautiful… whatever any of u have to say about my choice of music, by all means share it with me… I’m open to anything… I need some entertainment…

Have u ever been up at 3 in the morning, finding urself driving alone in a borrowed car listening to a guy pouring his heart out, yapping (is there such a word?) about lost love n obsessing about a pretty face he saw on the subway? I have… yeah, it’s official… I have no life… but hey… I’m pretty sure there were others on the road too… but I noticed, all of them guys… the girls were all in groups… *hmm* sad lives we Malaysian men live huh… go figure… I’ll save this for another entry…

I’m sorry if this entry seems pointless, but when have I ever needed a reason to talk crap, especially here on this blog?

My wish: May all of u who drive alone at 3 a.m. (regardless of whether u have a life or barely have one, but hey, u’re cruising ALONE at 3 a.m, that pretty much sums things up doesn’t it?) never have the misfortune of a punctured tire or an engine breakdown, may u get to ur destination safe n sound…

Now if I can only find the house keys… *damn*

The Dark One Returns...

When I first started blogging, it was because I had nothing to do... I had free time, A WHOLE LOT of it... but it has been more than 6 months since my last post... so what happened in between? Well, the honest truth is... NOTHING... sheesh... I thought writer's block was just an excuse made up by writer's as an excuse for their inability to come up with good stuff to write... but it's not like having it makes me any more of a writer than I already not am... *sigh*

But hey, I'm back now... *old school suspense music*

Like that would make any difference... anyway, I've got a few things I'd like to share, but I guess you'll have to wait a little while longer... *evil laugh*

*Austin Powers theme*